I can honestly say I don't know where this came from. I don't know if it's repressed anger from some killer bad beats I've taken lately or something in my local water supply. Today in the PO 4pm I survived 2 all ins and was looking really nice. Then with 12 people left I got 99. I meant to raise but hit call. That irked me a little because this was a definite raise situation. So the flop comes out 7810. The small blind goes all in for half my stack. I know he has a ten but from some insane reason I decide I'm going for the straight. Something I literally never do. The turn and river are blanks.

Then as if further channeling Mike Matusow I push my stack into 2 ppl who already raised and re-raised (again knowing da#n well I'm behind if not crushed) with 6h4h. Rightfully I was KO'd and I sat there dumbfounded about what I just did in the last 2 minutes. Did I mention not only was I playing like a donkey but I WAS the donkey! So close and I shoot myself. I know we all tilt and this isn't my first time, just not too many times where I've tilted with no reason whatsoever. I keep telling myself it's only a free roll but I take this place waaaaay to seriously as far as being competitive goes. Sitting out the 7pm but Ill be back for my fix at 10 and 11.