live and let live! personally, i know that took a lot to come to the forum and say all that for everyone to hear! people can change. not only do they have to want to change, but we have to let them change. just admitting your past tells me that you are trying to move past it. you're good in my book. and congrats on getting that off your chest...i'll bet you feel a lot better now! and thanks for the honesty!! that's rare anymore...especially online.