so i binked a satellite ticket into a 1st place for $225...my biggest cash since idk when i destroyed a pokerstars tourny way back when...and im chilln, STRAIGHT on that 225 cuz i had already planned on depositing 200 wenever i get a decent check from my new job, so i dont even have to worry about that...play a few tournaments and HU sngs, losing then breaking even losing then breaking even..after taking a little loss, i was like fuck it let me play in the casino for a little bit...my dumb fucking retarded ass sat in 3card poker, a game i've never even played in my life, and got raped....dusted off everything but 5 fucking dollars and next thing i know im just sitting there laughing while i ban myself for 90 days from the casino...again...for the 3rd time....it's pathetic the way i do these things to myself but honestly i'm kind of numb to this one, i just see it as absolutely retarded...still feels good to know i binked that shit so i know i have it in me....absolutely destroyed that tournament, like 60-65%% chips in play for the 2nd half of the tourney and then like 80% going into 3way...that shit was epic, and winning it was worth losing it honestly...but yea, avoid the casino guys...


tl;dr - if you GRIND HARD for poker, then try to play in the casino games when you finally have something nice, you're gonna have a bad time...binking juicy ass tournaments is a beautiful feeling when the software isn't assraping you and your hands hold up when they're supposed to...